Poison Idea, particularly Pig, made loud noises about
how anyone who snitched on another man should be a
dead man, how corrupt "The Badge" made people, and how
we'd turned into a "Nation of Finks." He even recorded
an album with the singer of the band Millions of Dead
Cops. Being a "solid criminal" was a huge part of
Pig's public persona.
Fine.
Too bad that in practice, Tom Roberts was a police
informant. I should know.
The incident—revolving around when my psycho mistress
smashed a rival in the head with an axe handle—is
dealt with in Shit Magnet. It wasn't until I was
jailed and handed a stack of police reports by my
lawyer that I saw the name "Tom Roberts" listed on a
report, alongside the address where I knew Pig
Champion to be living. He had spoken to police about
the incident.
I've been thinking about possible reasons for why Pig
turned into Rat. The girl who got hit with the axe
handle was a friend of his. Pig was the one who played
matchmaker with me and her for our ill-fated one-night
tryst. Maybe she encouraged him to help with the
investigation. I never said he CALLED the police. But
he definitely TALKED to them. There can't be TWO "Tom
Roberts" who lived at the same address who would have
known anything about the crime, right? Imagine how I
felt when I was behind bars and finally read THAT
police report....THANKS, Pig!
I did a brief search of "Pig Champion" and the word
"dead." From all corners, it's "what a great
guitarist..." "...what a shame," etc. And that's all
fine. I wouldn't want to mess with anyone's "fond
memories" or whatever.
But amid all the eulogies, there was not a PEEP about
"lifelong pathetic junkie" or "hypocrite who betrayed
his own loudly stated values." Try for a moment to put
yourself in my position. Every time my name arises,
it's Nazi wifebeater, bibbety bibbety boo...the
complete opposite of what happens with Pig and most
others whose shortcomings don't fall within the realm
of the Currently Forbidden. "Hypocrite" and "junkie"
don't cause people to gasp as much as "racist" or
"misogynist."
Where I'm standing, a person causes much more
measurable damage to themselves and those around them
by being a lifelong heroin addict than by being
someone who has slapped (or slapped back) his wife or
girlfriend a few times.
But our marvelously logical culture has reached a
point where junkies—the pariahs of 50 years ago—are
nearly lionized.
Pig stole from both me and Debbie. I remained silent
once when he outlined his plans to steal musical
equipment from owners of a warehouse who were allowing
his fat stinking ass to live there for free. He had no
moral compunctions about ANYTHING when it came to his
dope habit.
And though I never knew him to have a girlfriend, he
saw fit to constantly run his mouth to people about
how I deserved to DIE for how horribly I'd allegedly
treated Debbie over a dozen years.
I was talking to Jen (co-author for the NASCAR
project) about my feelings regarding Pig, because they
mirror the way I feel about a girl that both Jen and I
know. The girl in question tried to "book block" me
from becoming friends with Legs McNeil in order to try
and get her own book contract through Legs. She told
him I was a prick to her and that he should never work
with me and that I'd written insulting things about
her, when the truth was that I'd never written
ANYTHING about her. What infuriated me about this is
that I'd NEVER done anything bad to this girl. For
whatever personal reasons (spite, jealousy,
insecurity?) she saw fit to try and damage me.
If I've been a dick to someone, which is not uncommon,
then maybe I can at least understand WHY they're being
so vengeful, no matter if I think they're going too
far. But when I've done nothing but be cordial and
friendly to someone and THEN they turn?
Grrrrrrrrrrr....
Same situation with Pig. I knew him for quite some
time. Was never a dick to him. Never insulted him. And
then he turns on me and my girlfriend of the time? And
keeps talking shit about me to everyone in Portland?
And then Mr. "Nation of Finks"/"The Badge" winds up on
a POLICE REPORT? Yeah...that annoys me.
Pig is quoted by Debbie during the time of our breakup
as saying my "candle" would burn out soon.
Too bad. Yours burnt out first, fat boy.
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