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HARROWING 1ST HAND ACCOUNT OF TSUNAMI

An email from a dive instructor in Thailand. It is the best - and most harrowing - description of the tsunami I've seen. Incredible.
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Sitting around, day after Christmas, just staring at the TV, some movie we've seen before. Mid-morning, post-breakfast stupor controlling Karin and me. The power flickers and we moan. We'll have to get up and do something? Then we hear some yelling outside.

I look out the front door, still puffed up with pride about our new house, just 400 feet back from the beach. People are running up our street yelling. It looks like a fire at the large two story resort that effectively blocks our view of the beach. Smoke and dust coming up and all these people.

Then a small line of really brown water comes rolling towards us. That's weird. But I reckon it must be some strange full moon high tide. So we go upstairs so we don't get wet. I look out the window and try and take some pictures. There is a quiet rumble to it, like those white noise generators that are supposed to help you sleep. The water is getting higher and higher and then it destroys our friends cement bungalow! Then our front door caves in, and then water is coming up the stairs! HOLY SHIT. This was the last point my brain worked for a long time.

We try and throw a mattress out the window to float on, but the water is rising too fast, and out the window we climb. It's all going so fast. It's faster than conscious thought and by the time we are on our second story roof, the water is coming out the window. We jump.

Karin doesn't jump at the same time or did I jump too early? We're separated. I scream her name, but the crashing roiling water mutes me. I can't hear her. I scream and scream until I get hit by something and pulled under. I can't swim to the top, I pull myself through trash and wood to the surface and off I go.

Ahead are trees wrapped in flotsam and as I look a Thai guy is struggling to get free of it, as I pass by at 30 MPH I realize he is impaled on a piece of wood and can't even scream.

My brain shut down when Karin disappeared, and now all I can do is survive. Something triggers and I swim. I swim to avoid the trees which will trap me, possibly kill me. It seems that I am atop the crest of the tsunami, which is less like a wave than a flood.

From on high I can see the water hit buildings, then rise, then watch the buildings collapse into piles of concrete and rebar. I swim to avoid these. Left and right I paddle, looking ahead the whole time trying to figure the hazards. None of this is conscious, this isn't me thinking it out, it's some recessed part of the brain coming out and taking control.

I was busy seeing the weird things, like massive diesel trucks being rolled end over end. Or the car launched through the 2nd storey wall of a former luggage shop. Or the person high up in a standing tree in a lurid orange thong. Or the older foreigner that got stuck in the wood and steel wrapped around a tree, and then his body torn off while his head remained. I couldn't scream.

I was pulled under, my pants caught on something, I decided that this was neither the place nor time for me to die, and ripped my pants off. I surfaced into a hunk of wood which cut my forehead. A 5 gallon water bottle sped by, and I wrapped myself around it like a horny German Shepard on a Chihuahua. I was passing people with bleeding faces and caked in refuse. Some people reached out to me, and I back, but the water was too fast and erratic. Some people screamed for help and I told them to swim. Some people just stared with empty eyes, watching what happened, but seeing nothing. Some were just floating bodies.

At some point, I passed a guy, cut on his cheek, holding onto big piece of foam. We just made eye contact and shrugged apathetically at each other. Then I turned ahead to watch fate. When I looked back he was gone.

Trees were pulled down, and their flotsam added to the flow. I was hit by a refrigerator and pushed towards a building that was collapsing. I swam and swam and swam and swam and still was pushed right towards a huge clump of jagged sticks and metal. I was pulled under, kicked towards the mass, cut my feet and kicked again. I popped up on the other side, spun around and pulled under again.

Down there, I knew it was not the time, and I pulled my way up through the floating rubbish of my former town. I pulled and pulled and my lungs ached for air. I flashed on Star Wars, the trash compactor scene, and had some big grin in the back of head as I popped up. Sucking shitty water and air deep in my lungs.

This went on for seeming weeks. Time simply left the area alone. I grabbed the edge of a mattress and floated. Breathing, just breathing. Awareness brought back by the sound and look of a water fall. Trying to push up onto the mattress more and more, and it took my weight less and less. Tumbling over the edge, sucked under again, and out I shot, swirled into a coconut grove, where the water seemed to have stopped. There was even a dyke like wall around the grove.

The water spun and churned, but went no where, and got no higher. It wasn't swimming, or climbing, but something in between. I made my way to the land. Every step had to be careful with broken glass everywhere, and sheet metal poking out. It was a long slow struggle.

The low rumble had stopped, and now is the occasional creak of wood on wood and metal scraping. Moans came across the new brown lake. A small boy was in a tree crying, asking for his parents in Norwegian.

I climbed up onto the dyke and looked around. I screamed out for Karin, only getting responses in Thai. I stood there, panting, trying to find a thought, anything. As I came back to earth I needed to pee. The first thing I did after surviving the tsunami was piss! Along limps an older Thai guy, finds me, naked atop a dyke amid the destruction, covered in mud and filth, pissing. He didn't even smile, nor did I.

I spent the next minutes running from high point to high point screaming out for Karin. If I made it, she could too. There was no response from her. I found plenty of other people, and helped who I could, but always looking across this vast area of new lakes for her head.

Through the trees was a PT boat, a large steel police cruiser. The boat and I had been brought more than a kilometer (2/3 mile) inland.

I was standing near a tree, hoping for a clue, anything to say she was out there somewhere. A small boy in a tree whimpered, and I pulled him down. We went inland. There were houses, still standing, a whole neighborhood atop a rise that was untouched. Just feet away were cars wrapped around trees. I handed them the boy.

I had finished my medic training exactly one month before, so I went to work. Pulling people out of mud, from under houses. One car, upright against the trunk of a tree still had the driver. He was dead. It went on. Before this I had only seen a dead body once or twice. That was remedied very quickly. I pulled people out of the water, only to have them choke and die right there. I would take someone's pulse, scream for help, then find that they had died before we could do anything. It was beyond any nightmare or fear I have ever had.

An older Thai woman came up to me with a pair of shorts and averted eyes. She was ashamed that I was totally naked. I smirked and slipped them on. She smiled and scurried away. Was it the bright white ass or the fear shriveled cock that had embarrassed her?

Roaming the former streets looking for foreigners to send to the higher ground, a place where we could all meet and tend to wounds. After an hour the Thais came screaming out of the mud saying there was another wave coming, and flying into the hills. We were left alone. Those that could walk did, the rest were carried. We made a new base, higher and safer. And the same thing happened again. And again.

Eventually we ended up in the jungle at a park, where there was water and high ground. It was messy. Eventually there were about 300 foreigners, about 120 of whom were injured pretty severely with broken limbs and ribs, near-drownings, everyone had gashes of some kind, severed fingers or toes and shock everywhere.

There was no medicine, no tools, no scissors, no bandages. Nothing but well water (of questionable cleanliness) and some sticks and clothes. I tried to find anyone medically trained. It was only the diving instructors who all had basic first aid. So we cleaned with the water, we broke sticks and set bones and talked people into a relatively calm place. If someone was severely cut, we used their own clothing to mend the wounds. It was a horror story. The floor was covered in blood, people were moaning, or vomiting or asking us to help them. And more arrived with every new wave of cars and trucks fleeing the "next wave".

After hours of this, we got news of helicopters evacuating the injured. So everyone rushed towards the trucks. I had to scream and push and pull people out of the way. The ones who needed the evac the most were the ones who couldn't get to the trucks. After twenty minutes of sorting through the priorities, and feeling like we had a handle on it, someone brought me to a girl who was bleeding severely out of her thigh and was in shock. No one had brought her to our little clinic area, they had left her in the back of the truck.

Finally, after a few helicopters had pulled out the worst, I headed back down. Through rubber tree plantations, and coconut groves we drove. It seemed quiet and relaxed. At the last corner it was devastation. The road was clear and dry up to a certain point and then it was a horizon of rubble. I shuddered.

Someone on a scooter came up and asked for a doctor. Everyone looked at me! I jumped on and they took me up roads I never knew existed, and over bridges that were barely standing until I was brought to five foreigners in the middle of nowhere. One of them was a good friend and diving instructor. It was the first person I had seen that I knew. It was a total joy. He was banged up pretty bad, but he got out and sent off to the hospital. Then the Thais came roaring up the hill, saying there was another wave. We had to carry four more people with broken bones (including a broken hip) up a hill. There was no wave. There never was.

I stumbled back down, wandering through the town looking for people to help. I found only bodies. I found one with a tattoo like Karin's on a scooter under some rubble. I pulled her out, and it was a Thai woman. Still griping her scooter, mouth agape.

Eventually I made my way back to the dive shop I worked at. We had always whinged about how it was too far off the main road, but it survived. It was a center for the survivors. I walked up to find friends alive and things clean and organized.

I had been able to keep on, doing what I could to help people, to close out my mind to what was around me and look only at what I was doing, to not see the dead people, to not worry about where Karin was. I had held together so well.

When I found out Karin was alive it all fell apart. I could smell the destruction, the horror I had just walked through, just lived through, that she had lived through. My body shouted out all the bruises and cuts I had ignored. It all struck me and threw me to the ground. It was too much. I could no longer accept this.

We hugged and ate and slept. My feet were cut up, I had small cuts all over my body, and a sinus infection from all the bad water. Karin had gotten hold of a coconut tree, wrapped herself around it and never let go. She had a few bruises and small cuts and a black eye. I was ecstatic to see her like that. First time I've been happy to see a woman with a black eye.

Most of the rest of our friends had come through. They had set up first aid stations and help stations, organized food and created a center for people to meet. The diving community came together and became our support, our medical care, our food - they did everything they could to help and then some.

(snip)

The next day I went back to where my house had been and surveyed the damage. One bungalow nearby had been lifted up and dropped on top of another. The whole beach was visible, meaning all of the two or three story hotels that had lined it were gone. There was a jet ski just near our house. The bottom floor of our house was gone, the upper floor was missing a couple of walls. The only thing left, was a plastic Jesus doll I had bought as a joke. So I was left with nothing in the world except my own plastic Jesus.

The level of destruction is virtually impossible to describe. On our beach we had approx. 2500 hotel rooms. It looked to me, that maybe 50 could still be called hotel rooms. The week between Christmas and New Year's is the busiest of the week. Without warning, without an evacuation plan the survival rates were minimal. The wave at our house was about 7 meters high (20 feet) and in some places it was 10 meters (30 feet) high. It wiped out the third floor of most resorts. The number of dead is astronomical, several thousand on my beach alone. By the second day you could smell it, and in the short walk to my former house, we passed about 10 bodies just strewn about.

Our final glance of the town was a cattle truck stacked full of wrapped up corpses. We wanted to go home.

In Bangkok most people got help pretty quick. The Swedes, Germans and English had charted flights for their citizens to get home. The Thai government gave free hotel rooms to survivors and there were lists of places to get food.

EXCEPT the Americans. I went in to find out what help I could get - I was able to get a replacement passport, a toothbrush and a paperback book. They said it was not their policy to arrange flights home. I was cut up, still covered in a pretty good layer of mud, I had no home, no money, no clothing (except some borrowed off Keith) nothing at all, and they could do nothing to help.

They did offer to let me borrow money, but they would have to find three people in America who would vouch for me, and that process should take less than a week. In the mean time I was fucked. I was destitute and rejected by the embassy. Karin was with me (she's Swedish) and said that I could still try and emigrate to Sweden. I was VERY tempted.

In these last days, watching politicians go on about helping and giving aide, but they won't even take care of their own citizens? I am very, very angry. All the other nations of the world were taking care of their own citizens! Eventually I got a flight home with JAL (that would be JAPAN airlines) not even an American company, but a JAPANESE company helped me get home.

I am still listed as neither found nor alive. Before I left I had spoken to the embassy twice on the phone, giving my name so I would be listed as alive so my family would not worry. I went to the embassy twice, once to get a passport to replace the one lost in the tsunami, and they never listed me as alive or found. I flew out of the country using said passport and am still not found. I went to the hospital three times, and, as of yesterday I am now listed as injured (having been in the states three days already). My family is now waiting to see how long it will take before they are notified about my status. So am I.

It does raise a good question - if I am missing or dead, do I have to pay taxes?

While spiteful about the embassy, I am grateful to be alive, and that those I care about are still alive. I still look around and am in awe at what just happened. I really feel like someone has slipped me some roofies and I woke up in America.

by sfgary Thu Jan 6th, 2005 at 13:53:42 PST
 http://www.dailykos.com/story/2005/1/6/165342/5432

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Awesome account of a devestating event 07.Jan.2005 14:40

Annie Chow agsearcy@aol.com

Few accounts I have heard made the impact of the chaos that this individual relates, especially his experience with the embassy. Maybe this article will elicite some changes in the future as to Americans who survive such an event and have to deal with an embassy.

Better Than Fiction: Wished You Weren't There 07.Jan.2005 15:23

George Putter Hayman geohaymn@optonline.net

I have listened to many stories of people who were in downtown Manhattan on that other recent fateful day, and have often been transfixed and transported by the verisimilitude, which, of course, it can't be if you were actually there.

But I wanna tellya, I've never read anything so obviously not made up, so gripping, so...Thank you for being there, but I wish you weren't.

At times like this we become aware that we are, as one local wag put it, about as important as the fleas on on a dog when, well, ever. This Act of Gaia, where people, rocks, trees, beaches, buildings, just sort of get in the way and are well, insignificant in the scheme of things. How humbling and humiliating is that?

Nevertheless, "Expat in Thailand" has done a wonderful thing for the rest of us. Can you imagine what it must have been like if YOU WERE THERE?

Now we know, and could you have made it up? I don't think so.

Thanks for sharing. Glad you and she are OK, and I pray that anyone who has the stomach for it, reads your account to experience firsthand how amazing and even heroic people can be even when caught up in one of life's worst nightmares.

Hats off to you, Karin, and your now-not-so-joke Jesus.

GeoHayman
Madison, NJ

Travel reality for Americans 07.Jan.2005 15:31

Planet earth citizen

I was deeply moved by your experience -- but not at all surprised by the shabby treatment you got from the American Embassy. My travel experience quickly taught me that any American traveling abroad who encounters a serious problem should not expect serious help from the American Embassy. A new passport and a toothbrush? What a travesty! Whether it's a case of an American driver getting in a car accident in a country where the law says someone must be held accountable (i.e. you can go to some hellhole prison for many years despite your innocence)and you are a racial or national minority -or you are robbed of everything you own and ill to boot - forget about the embassy and seek the kindness of strangers or your family and friends back home in the USA. Unless, of course, you are part of the social network that surrounds the embassy. It's who you know - which is how the embassy bigshots got their jobs in the first place, isn't it?

Graphic and troubling 07.Jan.2005 15:54

Anonymous

This is one of the most graphic and yet troubling accounts I have read reguarding the tsunami disaster. Being written from a first hand account, without being changed, maimed and rearranged, for the sake of appearence, or other motives, as much of the main stream media tend to do, this persons account of the disaster along with his humanitarian efforts and later observations, push home the enormity of all that happend that fateful day after Christmas.

As for the United States Embassy not being as helpful or "together" as those of other countries...I'm not surprised. It's a sad statement about the state of ones country when they apparently can't get it straight as to how many of their citizens are truely missing or dead...or in the case of this author, found their own way home, with little no thanks to them.

Thank God and good old American ingenuity, this fellow, and his lady made it home. Goes to show that the human spirt does not give up easily.

B6U6S6H 07.Jan.2005 16:14

Daithí Mac Lochlainn

America is a great country.
She deserves a better government than the one under which she now writhes.

Amerika the Great? 07.Jan.2005 16:24

Anonymous

I would seriously think about emigrating with your girl.It's obvious to any intelligent person that the Good old US of A isn't how we were brought up thinking any longer. Glad to hear you made it. I pray your memories will become tolerable soon.

American Embassy 07.Jan.2005 16:26

Not A Fan Of Uncle Sam

It does not surprise me that the embassy would treat you that way. After all, you are just a simple meaningless American citizen to them. Why would you think that they should have to do anything for you. They are in their country club enjoying life.

Now, if you were a politician or a family member of one, man, you could get free flights anywhere first class. They's even make sure that you got cleaned up, medical treatment and fed.

why didn't you... 07.Jan.2005 17:48

mscir

you should'a emigrated when you had the chance, bro, you think anything about this country's going to get better?

U.S. Embassy - no surprise. 07.Jan.2005 17:55

anonymous

The sad thing about the u.s. embassy is that noone even slightly familiar with U.S. is surprised. In fact, if they really helped, or if they were 1% effective in anything, listing as not missed for instance, that would be almost unbelievable, and even suspicious. The same way they treat their soldiers wounded in Iraq.

The only purpose of U.S. government, and, on a larger scale, of the corporate America, which actually _is_ the U.S. government, is screwing anyone and anything they can reach.

Good to see ya made it home 07.Jan.2005 17:57

Anasazi James anasazijames@yahoo.com

I've been to Thailand a few times in the 80's great place. The U.S. Government is nothing but a fascist pig state. It wasn't always this way but since Bush I and II took over it's the new 4th Reich. We the People need to let our civil servants know we don't appreciate their BS! Revolution Now!

A most credible incredible story 07.Jan.2005 17:58

Tuck-n-Tucson

WOW...Welcome home.Your story is all the more believable with the account of your experience with the American Embassy.Americans should be made aware of the hugh waste of taxpayer funds on this exclusive Country Club for the well-to-do & powerful.Anyone traveling overseas should understand the embassy is can't be counted on for help unless you have connections in the elitest heirarcy.

No wonder we're looked upon as the laughingstock of the world... 07.Jan.2005 18:07

James Winstanley

We have the highest incarcerated rate per capita.

Our education system is a joke for getting any real knowledge unless you send yoru kids to private schools.

Our politicians only give a damn about us when they are up for re-election (or appointment, as the recent "election" went).

We are mushrooms and the rest of the world knows it.

We are kept in the dark and fed horseshit. Only we are told the horseshit is filet mignon and we believe it.

And this account tells me that for all the posturing, the leaders and government of America do not give a damn about the citizens of America.

Time, folks, for a change in the entire government of America. May it be a peaceful one.

True account 07.Jan.2005 18:32

I wish you all the best -> Canadiana

Fascinating account of your ordeal. Too bad that5 stories like yours cannot be seen on CNN, especially the part about "helpful" American Embassy. Thank you for sharing your story.

Sweet plastic jesus. 07.Jan.2005 20:06

Bladerunner europajones@yahoo.com

Dear god to go through all that and then be rolled by someone who should help you. I know if I had the offer of living in a country that really does care about its people I'd go . This country is dead. I'm so sorry this had to happen to you. And I have read other accounts by other americans that had the same trouble.

When you are a victim of a disaster ... 07.Jan.2005 20:24

Nathan

and an American expect no help. America is on its last legs. Like the others said you should have taken up the offer from your girlfriend Karin o become a Swede. Swedes have far more compassion than an American has. With AMerica it is all about money only.

Incomprehensible 07.Jan.2005 22:05

Anonymous

What an incredible account. Thank you for sharing your first-hand experience--it helps in the comprehension of an incomprehensible, horrific event. It is also good to get the truth about our sad, awful government out to the mostly brainwashed public. I pray for your physical and emotional healing. Mostly though, I pray that you (and others) will not miss the HUGE spiritual message in that plastic Jesus doll. This was not a coincidence. When we are stripped of everything in life, all that is left is God. He did not abandon you even though you mocked Him. May His Mercy be upon us all.

God Bless Amerika 07.Jan.2005 23:29

Anon

What an incredible experience to have survived--thank you for sharing, and may you always be able to count on your plastic Jesus--probably more reliable than the government of the US of A. Many years ago, I was hit by a car in Cairo, Egypt, and received the same sort of treatment that you did by the American Embassy--and I never felt so ALONE.
So, go to Sweden--become a Swede--escape while you still can! At least there, they will recognize your humanity and sympathize with your plight. After all, what are you to the US Govt overseas, just another "brick in the wall"...

American embassies 07.Jan.2005 23:49

megawreck

Yeah and it's not just American Embassies in the third world, Thailand etc. either. We got our money, passports, everything ripped off in Rome in the eighties and the embassy wouldnt do a damn thing. A damn thing! They wouldnt even take passport pictures for free, they wanted $50 to do that! So we went back to the hotel and some catholic nuns from California in town to see the papa and the vatican gave us $100 for the new pix (for two passports). American express was a lot more sympathetic, taking a copy of the police report and replacing the traveller's checks the same day. Of course we paid the sisters back!
If this happens to you overseas, grab another American tourist, or a native, the Embassy doesn't serve the plebs, just the plutocrats.

HELP FROM US EMBASSY 08.Jan.2005 00:30

Kerry Litwin

Par for the course for the US Embassy.

HARROWING 1ST HAND ACCOUNT OF TSUNAMI 08.Jan.2005 00:48

author: expat in Thailand

Pull the other one, it's got bells on!!!!!!!!

By all accounts you are speaking from beyond the grave!!!!!!!!!!

comment on the previous comment 08.Jan.2005 02:31

Thomas turk

Strange comment from the previous writer...I lived, only because my villa lies 13 metres above sea level, the highest wave was 10 metres. at Kalamala Beach, in Phuket, see kamalabeachestate.com, the left lowest villa is mine. If I were on the sea, in the sea, on the beach or on the beach road or in the village I MAY not have survived. I spoke to an old Thai gentleman after the tsunami, who was scrathed, battered and bruised, and he apparently was carried, almost surfing, on the the big wave, that was our second one, and then dumped beyond the main highwy, about a kilometre inland He too was not speaking from the grave...

Very, Very Good... But 08.Jan.2005 03:46

Mike Andrews

I found the harrowing account quite well-written and morbidly fascinating, all except for the parts where the author used graphic language, such as the part in his narrative where the Thai woman handed him pants to wear.

If not for the unnecessarily graphic terms used in the article I would give my full accolades. But in lieu of the writer's needless pandering to Jewish-Marxist sex-speak I have pause to wonder whether the whole article may be a fabrication.

Readers - So, what are YOU going to do to make the world a better place 08.Jan.2005 03:47

Rick Losh, Shelby Township, Michigan

Excellent article! This gentleman has missed his calling. He should consider becoming an author. Aside from the natural disaster, it's a tragedy that Americans and others were inconvenienced at this most inopportune time as they tried to get home. Granted, the situation did not fit the protocol. However, it's a shame that those who could have helped didn't have the COURAGE to re-define the rules to meet the needs of these desparate people in this emergency. Nestled in our comfortable realities, half a world away, we routinely encounter that institution that is unable to efficiently support our needs unless they perfectly fit their process - very similar to the situation these survivors experienced as they tried to get home. Recognize that these blundering institutions are comprized of people like you and me. Let's make the world a better place by empowering ourselves on the job and helping our customers, even when, ESPECIALLY WHEN their situation is outside the norm. Remember: What goes around, comes around. YOU can make a difference! If you're not part of the solution, you are the problem.

From beyond the grave ..... 08.Jan.2005 05:39

Proudly South African

Dear Expat & Karin,

"When you lose yourself in a sea of love, then indeed do you find that you lap against the shores. It is as if you cast yourself in the cleansing power of the eternal sea of love. And you do not become drowned, but you become, as it were, lifted up, buoyed up by it, and you are carried by it. And in consequence your work then begins. And many a shore you may be cast upon, and you will enable others to find that which you have found."
On 21st June 1961 a voice manifested in the seance room of British medium Leslie Flint, claiming to be that of the late Mahatma Gandhi (1869-1948)

To listen to an excerpt - visit:  http://www.xs4all.nl/~wichm/gandhi.html

I pray that through the wisdom shared on the above site, and in other recordings and messages available through this page, that you both find an inner peace and better understanding as to the current whereabouts of those who lost their lives in this tragedy, that you were both so 'miraculously' a part of, and that this also helps to guide you both, to those shores where your experience and awakening shall only ever enlighten and help others.

God bless you both, your families, friends, and all others involved in this disaster.
Proudly South African!

Who is this 08.Jan.2005 06:35

Tired of always wondering

Who is the author, and where is he? No biog, no truth to the scenario...

American Embassies are very helpful. Your experience is unique. 08.Jan.2005 06:52

John of New York

My experience with the American Embassy in helping travelers is much different than yours. In eastern Europe, back in 1990, I had a problem and found the Embassy to be very, very helpful. In fact, the American Embassy assistance program for Americans is considered by most other embassies to be by far, the best. About 6 years ago, a friend of mine who worked for the British Embassy mentioned that the U.S. Embassy was far more helpful to distressed travelers than the British Embassy. Your experience seems to be unique and perhaps was a local breakdown or perhaps some other factor. Incidentally, other American organizations outside of the USA, such as the Coast Guard, also have a superb reputation. I was told by a Polish container ship captain that in the 1980's, ships in distress, no matter what country they were from, would always try to contact the US Coast Guard before even their own systems, since the U.S. Coast Guard was considered so much better and efficient.

One comment about moving to Sweden or the EU ... 08.Jan.2005 07:18

John of New York

Since you mentioned that your wife Karim suggested that you move to Sweden, I would have to say that as an American, you would probably go crazy living over there. I have been to Sweden a few times and it is an interesting place to visit, the people are reserved and the country is relatively clean, but having said that, it should also be mentioned that Swedens reputation as a neutral mediator country and a country of a high standard of living, far exceeds reality. The fact is that Sweden has little social movement or opportunity for advancement, it is clannish and ridged with little flexibility. You seem to need a license for everything overthere and simple matters take forever to resolve. You probably would need a license to piss! Perhaps this is why Sweden's suicide rate is almost as high as Japans and Hungary's. Don't forget that the taxes in Sweden are sky high and there seems to be a feeling among the populace that the government owes them something. There is a reason why America is the number one tourist destination and why so many Europeans and Japanese want to live here and often overstay their tourist visas.

Still the same Embassy 08.Jan.2005 08:28

Sweet William

I was in the Peace Corps in the early 70's and met lots of young travellers who needed help from the Embassy and were turned away with no pity or concern. At the same time the Embassy couldn't do enough to help the american businessmen selling arms to the Thais.

Crude presumptious comment by the author of the article. 08.Jan.2005 08:31

anonymous

I don't feel that the author is credible. The fact that he seemed to concentrate his assistance towards foreigners, the fact that he mocked the kind action of the old Thai woman came up to him with a pair of shorts to cover his nakedness and the fact that he tries to justify why he could not help his girlfriend makes me wonder about his personality. To begin with, I feel that he should have thanked the old Thai women who was so kind to him and had absolutely nothing to gain from him, by giving him a pair of pants. Instead of thanking her, he smirked at her. That pair of pants might have been very expensive to her. Thailand is a poor country that sadly, is swamped by a strange combination of cheap tourists on a budget and sex tourists. Just the tone of the article give me the impression that the nameless author has some sort of persecution complex of them against us. When he said that he was helping foreigners, I wonder if he meant all foreigners, such as Chinese, Vietnamese, Japanese, as well as the Europeans and Americans. He hardly mentions the suffering of the locals, except in a contemptuous manner. I have noticed that most so called "expat" communities are comprised of foreigners who have trouble accepting the new environment.
The person who wrote the article should not be taken seriously and probably does not represent view point of most of the surviving forefingers.

It's not worth it .... 08.Jan.2005 08:58

Proudly South African

PLEASE, let's not allow our emotions & innate 'fears' to get the better of us in any manner whatsoever ... and God forbid ... ever separate any of us.
We are ALL ONE, no matter which country we hail from, and no matter who our respective 'leaders' are ... at least we ALL share and love the same CREATOR!

I have lost half of my precious family to other countries, with a FRACTION of that which ours had to offer them ... all in the senseless name of 'fear'.

Let's face it ... Expat is entitled to his emotional outburst, and I'd bet my last cent, that all of us, would've reacted with very similar sentiments had we also not been wearing his shoes ... or should that be pants in this instance? He'd built a NEW and very idyllic life for himself, his wife and their future family ... yet in one, very unpredictable split-SECOND, this was ALL taken away from him ... and instead of now being in what he'd considered to be paradise, he's back where his ROOTS were originally planted ... and is obviously experiencing much difficulty coming to terms with both this realization, and the horrific nightmares that became a REALITY for him.
As for the US Thai Embassy ... these people don't account for an entire NATION ... we all know that! It's the empathy and making of an INDIVIDUAL, no matter which country, colour or creed that they are born into, and NOT who their current leader is, that makes them who they are, and determines their ultimate 'destiny'.
We, South Africans, like many others, have been there and done that ... and trust me ... it's not worth it! We've triumphed in the end ... which to us, is actually, just our beautiful BEGINNING!
Stick together, and give EVERYONE equal opportunity to prove him or herself, before making any judgement.
You really do need to become 'ONE'.... if you, as a nation, also, genuinely wish to SUCCEED.
Life is so short, yet the lessons are numerous ... take each one, as an absolute BLESSING!

May all of our MINDS become our TRUE places of worship ... that way, we'll ALL, as SINCERE brothers and sisters, have something ELSE that's IMPERATIVE to each one of us and the wellbeing of OUR planet, IN COMMON.

PEACE, LOVE and HEALTH always,
Even more proudly South African!

PS: Forgive me for boasting ... it took more than 40yrs, before I ever dreamed of having this opportunity to do so ... and if I can do it, so can YOU! :)

Where is God? 08.Jan.2005 09:09

anonymous

This unfathomably great tragedy along with such excruciatingly dramatic first-hand accounts remind us how fragile our human existence is. So where is God? If He is omnipotent, why has He allowed innocent people to suffer? Hasn't He got a better plan for us or is He just not interested in the affairs of humankind? Or is He incapable of intervening? Are there really any convincing answers to these questions? (1 John 4:8, Psalm 37:11)

Pee to your hearts' content 08.Jan.2005 13:47

Mikael the Swede

The comment of John of New York about some of the less attractive qualities of Sweden above is fundamentally correct, apart from us Swedes needing a licence to pee. Such slanderous talk about our beautiful country can never be allowed to stand uncorrected!

Two facts needs to be acknowledged:

1. In Sweden, the property right of the land owner does not trump your God-given right to take a stroll wherever you goddamn please, and to peruse his land respectfully in non-destructive ways.

2. More than 50 percent of Sweden is covered by forests.

Sweden may thus actually be considered the freest country in the world, when you really gotta go.

On a less humorous note, the reason any American might consider emigrating to Sweden (or pretty much anywhere) after all, is that his good ole US of A happens to be in the process of morphing into a really ugly Police State. If you haven't moved your sorry ass to wherever you'd like to keep it, by the day Martial Law is switched on, you're not going to go anywhere.

Consider yourself warned.

What was God saying!? 08.Jan.2005 15:30

Pakenhamin

I read with bemusement your comment that the only thing left behind in your house was a Jesus doll bought as a joke. I wonder if Jesus is trying to tell you something by this very thing? Just in case you are too thick to work this one out let me make a suggestion.
Maybe He is trying to tell you that He really is most important in your life, that anything else you value can be taken away from you in a moment, even your partner or your very lives. Want to check that one up?

What does god have to do with it? 08.Jan.2005 19:01

pnguine pnguine2@yahoo.com

Why do these internet 'discussions' always get turned around to whether god done it or not? If this guy is faking it he's got one hell of a good imagination. Moses went up the hill to get some instructions from god. One would assume that the most intellgent being in the universe would put his commands in a certain order because the first one was the most important. And that if there were supposed to be provisos they would be mentioned. So what gives 'christians' the right to speak for god when thier bellies are full of dead flesh? If mamon didn't own so many humans we would have been able to warn most of them about the impending doom.

Expat, I hope you haven't had to read these 08.Jan.2005 23:20

9/11 Survivor aolgillian@yahoo.com

I sure hope the Expat who wrote this hasn't had to read some of the more inane comments left here. I lived through 9/11 and I still am flattened by how insensitive people can be--sadly and embarrasingly--more often it is people of "faith" who I find questioning the voracity and 'intention' of those of us who have lived through horrors like these.
Whether you are a survivor of war, Oklahoma City, 9/11 or this horrifying Tsunami, we are always faced with those who simply can't do as Atticus instructed and walk in someone else's shoes...something we were supposed to learn in Sunday School if not in Middle School.
Shock and horror do strange things to us in the days after an event like this. Expat's focus on what he did is honest and right--to have laden his account with moralizing or commentary would have been disingenuous at the time. To think otherwise is the height of cruelty (and an indication of a personality that is dangerously lacking in empathy or self-reflection) and a horrible way to treat a survivor of any disaster or trauma. Were Expat to write an account next week, or next month, it would needless to say, be different and focus on different things. I think what we have the good luck to read here is a raw, heart-rending account of something I hope to G-d the rest of us never have to experience.
To those who didn't get his self-effacing irony at the Jesus doll comment--perhaps you should brush up on your "irony" alert. (He DID get it.) And to those offended by his nakedness, thinking that he was not grateful enough to the Thai woman--go back and read it again. Making a joke out of OUR OWN embarrassment is something humans have done for centuries. Writing the episode off as some neo-Marxist gobbledigook is only indicitive of your need to get out of Grad School.
Expat--thank you. I feel your pain:  http://www.geocities.com/aolgillian/HSLAPS_WTC.html


well written for the western mind 09.Jan.2005 00:32

Lilli

That was a well written account of a traumatic real life event. From a western living in the east, facing challenges and being called to surpass his greatest couch surfing dreams. Well done! Congrads on finding your partner, on being of Service when called on for help. One people One planet One Love. May your readjustment to the western culture be one of little struggles.
Blessings on your Path.

Swedish Citizenship 09.Jan.2005 00:59

Expat American for life

I'm usually suspicious of survivors accounts, but this one struck me as being honest and unpretentious. Having been in dangerous situations, I know that humor is part of tragedy. But you should have taken your girlfriend's advice and emigrated to Sweden. You'd be an EU citizen as well. I emigrated to France years ago and have never regretted it. I still hold an American passport as well, but if I ever got into trouble I'd go to a French Embassy. An American passport is more of a liablility than a plus once you step outside America's borders.

P.S. (for John of New York) 09.Jan.2005 01:28

Expat American for life

I work in the tourism industry. France is the number one tourist destination, not the US. I'm not trying to start a pissing contest here, just setting the facts straight. I'm sure I'll be blasted this so-called un-American post, but whatever.

what's to become of us 09.Jan.2005 02:13

anonymous

one wonders that the acts of nature, which seem to be coming more frequently and with greater force might be in fact a result of the way in which we abuse our planet. might not our gas emissions, overfishing of oceans, burning through the ozone layer, etc, all be the root of the beginning of our end. and in all of this destruction it is the poorer nations, the weaker people, lacking in resources to protect themselves, that suffer the most...

I am deeply saddened! 09.Jan.2005 05:33

This great nation of ours! ddebsha@aol.com

After reading this my heart aches. Having to go through such an experience, all the trauma, the fear, the pain, the witnessing of others suffering and the helplessness to save them, as you were moved by the forces of nature, passing them by, feeling oneself taken over and moved by the internal intention toward survival that can only come from the power beyond our thoughts beyond our feelings, our life force itself, what words can be said. And then to make it out alive, to be able to help the helpless, to feel so blessed to be alive and to have then found your loved one and the sense of comfort that must have overcome you both to be within each others arms, shines a light amidst all the horror.

But then to come to what is meant to be a haven for those of our country in foreign lands and be abandoned as you were, takes me ta a place within myself of such disgust, such anger, such frustration! How can the US embassy treat our citizens with such inhumanity. I am mortified by what this country is coming to.
How dare we not care for our own. This needs to be sent to every political leader in this country, I fear for this county, which once was a great nation, and now it's obvious it's moral fiber is greatly freying! This is so disheartening. If your story gets to the right people maybe you can be a force of change. I think most Americans would be horrified to hear of the lack of support you were given, in what had to be the most vulnerable point in your life. I am sorry for the lack of compassion you were met with. I can only imagine what it must have felt like for you after surviving all that you went through and then to come to the one place that should've embraced you with care and concern, and given you whatever you needed to see to your safety and well being, you were turned away. Millions of dollars in aide, and the embassy couldn't see fit to offer you sn airline ticket home. I find that shameful!

God 09.Jan.2005 08:06

anonymous

Great story, I'm glad both you and your girlfriend survived.

The rest of this is addressed to the poster that called you a fornicator and said that the reason god did this was to punish fornication.

Isn't nice how our religious friends are the first to call names.

I'd like to remind our religious friends about some facts. Oh, I know, facts are the enemy of religion, you don't want to hear them. For those of you who believe in a god that causes events on earth, think of this. Your god thingie just went on a rampage, killing thousands of innocent victims. This behavior is entirely consistent with gods actions described in the bible. Your loving god saw fit, once again to kill indiscriminently. But, he apparently saw fit to keep the fornicators alive. You see your religious brain misfired once again. Even with your twisted religious reasoning you can't see to get your reasoning to line up with the facts as you read them.

Post Trauma is Serious! 09.Jan.2005 19:06

Tam

I've been through a seriously horrible experience such as this about 6 years ago. I was forced to talk about it over and over and am very slowly recovering severe mental anguish. The pain the survivors have to go through should be respected with the utmost of sympathy. For the people commenting without knowledge of the excruciating memories that will plague these survivors for the rest of their lives...
KEEP your ignorance to yourselves. In other words, stuff a sock in your mouth and keep it there.
I feel so horrible about what I know to be true torture. Living with what they have experienced and seen, will most likely be a life long struggle that will keep them from ever experiencing true joy - ever again. I commiserate with all my heart.
And for Survivors reading this - please know that time helps and grief therapy such as a forensic pyschologist helps to numb the memories and teaches coping skills. Coping is the only way to numb these experiences and professional help is the only way to utilize these tools.
I wish I could do more to ease the suffering that I fully understand.
( America is notoriously horrible to ex-pats & Canada is not too far behind - myself having lived overseas for 9 years and the Embassy was of little help in the 3rd world countries.)


Sincerely,
Tam

Forget U.S. embassies 09.Jan.2005 19:22

sRfree srfree@rgv.rr.com

My experience in international travel has been, if an American has a problem or needs help of any kind, the absolute LAST place to go is the U.S. embassy. Hours will be wasted. In the end, they'll laugh in your face and say no one there will help you.

Call Your Congressperson or Senator 09.Jan.2005 19:53

exFS

The U$ diplomatic institution is quite sensitive to political winds. But fuck the taxpayers.

The card up your sleeve often is having contact, possibly even name relations, with your congressional representative, or even better, senator. If you and your rep share party affiliation, all the better. Call in your IOU.

It should be considered, that if you have to spend your last on a one-shot chance, that your best crack at getting out of a jam might be making a phone call, to reach a high level staffer at your congressperson's or senator's office. Keep in mind that this needs to be at DC business hours, or state hqs hours if the houses are out of session. The caveat, here, is how you assess your particular U$ legislative representatives' capacity and inclination to respond to such constituent needs. That card up your sleeve will be an Ace if your senator or congressperson is on a foreign relations committee or one of its subcommittees, or on an appropriations committee--any committee that has some drag with funding the foreign affairs agencies or legislation affecting foreign affairs, like trade, the environement.

If you can successfully make the case that you are being screwed by the dips, in high duress, left stranded etc. most elected reps will immediately make a call to the upper echelons of the Embassy, possibly screaming at the Ambassador, if not getting you VIP treatment all of a sudden, at least humane and practical assistance beyond the Embassies' usual elitist, Catch 22, pawn broker priorities.

Author 09.Jan.2005 21:48

Anon

The authors name is Paul Landgraver who was living in the Khao-lak region of Thailand when the Tsunami hit.

 http://sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi...

Wow 10.Jan.2005 00:04

Great story

I am very happy you survived but very upset that the American Embassy turned its back on you. America is not what it used to be 30 years ago thats for sure. I am very fearful that the policicians will leave the citizens of the U.S., no choice but to use violence to take our country back. I see very sad times in our future..

Stop Overpopulation!

It's time for the PEOPLE of the USA to reflect back a little .... 10.Jan.2005 11:37

CONCERNED .... in more ways than one!

It's evident to any foreigner (at least), that the US Government isn't putting their people first, so why should their people put them first?

President Eisenhower's farewell address to the nation, January 1961:
"In the counsels of Government, we must guard against the acquisition of unwarranted influence, whether sought or unsought, by the Military Industrial Complex. The potential for the disastrous rise of misplaced power exists, and will persist. We must never let the weight of this combination endanger our liberties or democratic processes. We should take nothing for granted. Only an alert and knowledgeable citizenry can compel the proper meshing of the huge industrial and military machinery of defense with our peaceful methods and goals so that security and liberty may prosper together."

"Unless we put medical freedom into the Constitution, the time will come when medicine will organize into an undercover dictatorship to restrict the art of healing to one class of men and deny equal privileges to others:
The Constitution of this Republic should make a special privilege for medical freedom as well as religious freedom."
Dr. Benjamin Rush, signer of the Declaration of Independence.

A GREAT ARTICLE EXPAT ... thank you for sharing that with us!
Blessings always to you and yours, and all others who were a part of this NIGHTMARE!

need to contact Paul Landgraver 10.Jan.2005 17:33

query mikelewis@seattlepi.com

I am trying to contact Paul Landgraver who, I am told, wrote this first hand-account of the tsunami. Does anyone have a number or email address for him? I can be reached at  mikelewis@seattlepi.com or at 206.448.8140. Thanks.

206.448.8140

More information for those who question the veracity of this account 10.Jan.2005 18:37

Steve Trudel (my real name) mayday@deliveryman.com

It is no surprise to me that in trying to make sense of such a massive disaster as this, some might flee into sarcasm and disbelief. Some of you who have spent more time reading blogs than I have, must have discovered that you had been tricked by one account or another.So I include this site for any of you who wish to seek confirmation of what you have just read.
 http://www.diveaid.co.uk/news.asp...

Thanks Steve! The family must reunite & rebuild ....... 11.Jan.2005 00:28

Annie

Thanks for that URL Steve!

I hope that those with egg on their faces, also take the time to visit it.

It's great knowing that Paul, Karin, Keith and Sara are all safe now, and have the ability to grow even more through their horrendous experience, and use this to further help others around the world ... once they, themselves have healed of course.
I also hope that all these wonderful divers manage to reunite, and live in their own little 'community' again, in the very near future! It's too sad thinking of them being in different countries, trying to deal with their grief and trauma alone at present. They'll heal much faster as the FAMILY they've become, so must find a way of achieving this soonest!
Thanks again Steve,
Annie.

US EMBASSY POLICY 11.Jan.2005 08:50

Idaho

Note for future reference, all Americans, US Embassy Policy is to not intervene in what is considered a Domestic and Local situation. YOU are Liable to the Laws of the Country that you are In. Translated, this means, you're on your own out there. Too many people leave the US under the mistaken belief that the Embassy is there to help the average citizen. NOt so.

Two years ago, we sought to change this policy, in line with how other countries treat their travelling citizens, based on American Mothers and their children trying to return home from abusive foreign marriages and violence, sadly, it failed to pass....

Perhaps, if more Americans actually alerted themselves to these matters, we could actually take back what the spirit of America is about, Government by the People, FOR the people....

Time to wake up and smell the coffee, put the prozac away...

Comment for Mike Andrews 11.Jan.2005 13:49

Selina in Washington

If all you can focus on is the swears and the graphic language to describe a terribly graphic and disturbing experience, then I think you need to have your heart rechecked. Get an MRI dude. This man can describe his experience any way he wants to, it's HIS EXPERIENCE.

to the anonymous writer of 'God' 11.Jan.2005 14:32

anonymous

Since the Bible is fact not fiction(John 17:17),it can set us straight regarding any assertions made about God and His purpose(II Timothy 3:16). Was this event an angry act of God?(Jonah 4:2, 2 Peter 3:9, Acts 10:34,35) Or simply an unforeseen occurrence?(Ecclesiastes 9:11) Or caused by man's abusing the earth and its resources?(Apocalypse 11:18 ) By putting aside dogmas,traditions and prejudice,etc. we can allow God's word to answer the most disquieting questions and reveal the true motivations of the heart(Hebrews 4:12)

Paul's friends stories ..... 11.Jan.2005 20:37

Annie

If you'd like to read more stories, and see photos of many of the divers mentioned (incl. Paul) and possibly even make a donation ... please visit the site recommended by Steve -  http://www.diveaid.co.uk - scroll down to LATEST NEWS.

With every best wish to ALL of YOU, and may you reunite your wonderful DIVING FAMILY soonest. I'm positive that you'll heal much quicker by being TOGETEHER, as opposed to being scattered throughout the world.

Recommended reading for any survivors: 'The Other Side and Back' by Sylvia Browne ... this will help to bring much needed peace of mind and restore your broken hearts!

With love and an abundance of light.

Eerie resemblence 12.Jan.2005 07:50

Jagracer

By the description of this harrowing account it sounds like the author was in Khao Lak. 4 of my friends were staying in those concrete bungalows near the beach when the wave hit. Two have survived and are hospitalised, the other two (each a partner of the survivors), including my good friend Ben, are still missing presumed dead. Their friend Ric, also with a dive school, was staying further up the hill and was able to locate and assist the survivors and search for the missing. His own harrowing story was told in the UK Sunday Times last weekend.

I'm pleased to hear the US Embassy was about as much help as the British to its citizens. Our first injured friend (Ben's partner) got airlifted out by the German airforce because she spoke German. When our second English friend (who had been helicoptered to Bangkok) was fit to travel, we got him out the same way, via the Germans and then back to the UK. The British Embassy were still all talk and no action.

Heartfelt sympathy 13.Jan.2005 04:34

Grammylammy Grammylammy1953@AOL.com

Thank you for your account of your experience. My heart goes out to you and all those who suffered because of this incredible disaster. Your words painted a picture more real than the photographs/news footage that have flitted past my eyes.
I am ashamed of our government and the treatment you and countless others received at the American Embassy. I can only shake my head in horror and shame as our erstwhile and very thoughtless "king" George W. Bush is about to cause millions to be spent in honor of himself at his inauguration. I believe those funds should be diverted to assist the victims & survivors of disaster.
I weep for all the tsunami victims...and also for those who endure corrupt governments everywhere.
May the spirit of the millions of good and caring people who dwell in our universe become strengthened so we may all do our own small part to bring what comfort we can to the survivors of all earthly disasters, natural and man-made. Further, may we humans resolve work together to achieve betterment of all inhabitants of our planet..before it's too late. Bless you Grammylammy/Eileen

questionalble 13.Jan.2005 12:08

skeptic

Descriptive account, maybe too descriptive to be completely factual. Star Wars? Naked? Woman with tatoo like Karin still gripping scooter (after something like that)? Missing friends reunited? Bashing on America? Sweden? Sweden was blasted for there slow response.  http://story.news.yahoo.com/news...
horny German Shepard on a Chihuahua? Written to much like fiction to to be truly believable.

Have most who weren't DIRECTLY affected FORGOTTEN? 03.Mar.2005 11:53

Proudly South African

Hi everyone,
I just cannot help wondering ... due to the lack of any 'movement' here,
whether most who weren't directly affected by this tragedy, have simply forgotten that it ever happened? :(
From my understanding (sadly though, not through any firsthand encounters), these people are so dynamic in their acceptance of fate, and will go to any length to move on, & at the same time, regain whatever faith they may have briefly questioned or even temporarily lost!
If only the rest of the us & the entire world, could take a feather from their cap and put it to good use.
Blessings and strength to mankind in general .... ALWAYS!

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