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Thoughts on a more personal solution....

You know what is weird? Well, we are all unhappy about something, but everyone accepts it. We go along with it, saying there will be change or a chance for change. But we never tackle it outright and alleviate it. I think truthfully we feel alive and engaged but we also feel feared and powerless.
You know what is weird? Well, we are all unhappy about something, but everyone accepts it. We go along with it, saying there will be change or a chance for change. But we never tackle it outright and alleviate it. I think truthfully we feel alive and engaged but we also feel feared and powerless. Powerless because none of us hold hands daily, welcome each other, and love. We may have the love, but its bad to show it. Or feel it. We don't trust one another. There must be methods to open us all up. How was I opened? I'm sure it was with genuine, truthful, and accepting love. And I want to give that and pull that out of others, yes, but I don't have any idea how to do that. So I feel worthless. It takes a revolution at home, a revolution of selves doing things to each other. We have to target the separation that eats at us and get rid of it. Make NO place for it in our lives. Because it doesn't matter what our issues, our beliefs, or our backgrounds are. It's about getting to the point of expelling separation- opening dialogue. blah blah blah....ok fine. BUT HOW? I mean really. Its so damn easy to recognize this problem, and easy too in my case to be constantly held down by it. But ahh, how to solve it? What is keeping us apart? Not media or the government, no, I don't come into contact with them. Anger? Fear? Distrust? What???? It is surely something to do with ourselves, is it not? Where must I go, what must I find to realize the solution. Not to be an egomaniac, but if everyone thought like me the world would be a nice place. Fuck, if everyone thought like YOU, it would be nice too. Sure - because we care and want to see everyone win, not just ourselves. But how do we make people want this too? WHY do I want this? WHY do you want this? Where do we get off thinking about everyone? Where do we get off believing that everyone wants to feel love and connection instead of hate and separation? Maybe the shitheads in Washington and in fancy cars and even those that buy Nikes are just fine, thank you. They seem not to care about others- don't think it concerns them. HOW CAN THEY LIVE WITH ALL OF THAT BLOOD ON THEIR HANDS? This is the question I ask you. Is it really possible to live in a way that fucks everyone else over and be ok with it? And be truly happy and fulfilled? It doesn't seem possible to me. But then, maybe that's what separates me in the end from others.

I'm enraged, sure, but what its really about is harnessing that rage and doing something with it. For one thing its about seeing the sadness and the despair in peoples eyes. And telling them its ok. And sharing yourself with them. And letting them share themselves with you. It's not about anything else. We have to open the human bonds. And teach each other what we know. Solidarity means being together, and knowing those you are with. Can we not beat the big THEM with a strength of spirit? Well then, we must build that spirit, fuel it, and act on it because in reality it doesn't affect us directly. We could not give a shit and go on and live life and survive. But fuck, it's not about survival anymore. The stakes have been raised. We have COMPASSION. All that care don't want to see any fellow man or woman get pushed around, oppressed, or hurt by our or someone else's or especially MY actions. It all comes down to that. And it all comes down to us admitting out care to each other and going with it. Nothing else can beat that. No power can beat the power of life and love and strength and compassion. The evils guys- they are going to be fucked in the end. No, it needs to be us loving one another. When will I stand up and show that love? THAT LOVE MUST BE GIVEN FREELY AND UNDERSTOOD BY OTHERS WITHOUT AN EXPECTED RETURN. I may scare people with this just as much as the government that oppresses us- most people aren't used to that kind of love. But that is precisely what will win- that complete and unending love. But it has to be strong, and it has to have strength and endurance behind it to last. And once it spreads it can grow and thrive and move- and people will be much more willing to go along with love even if it scares them- because it appeals to their hearts no matter how deep down- but its engaging that love and spreading, spreading it thick all over everything. WOW! No thing can beat that. No thing. No amount of money, no purpose, no amount of hate can even contest that kind of love. And that is the kind of love I WILL SEEK AND FIND until I can have enough and have it last enough to get to people. YES, HERE IS MY MISSION. AND I ACCEPT IT. Complicated it is, yes, and it requires working through a personal roadblock. But can I get there? YES YES YES YES YES I can.

What do you think?
I just don't know 25.Nov.2002 13:48

lyricine

but i send you the best wishes i have to offer.